Posted by
Nasuha
♥ Thursday, July 2, 2015
♥ Thursday, July 2, 2015
Week 3 - Mom .......
I know it's not what you wanted , but seriously mom? can anyone be blamed? I've tried , mummy. I really tried . Im so down to myself . I know you're upset, but I am too.
Yelling at me and ignoring me won't help. Yelling at me about how useless I can be , seem don't help
either. For once , can't you give me some
encouragement? You saw with your own eyes how hard I struggle during the exams? You may disagree with my way of studying , but the thing is you saw how
hard I tried. You know well how different I am as
compared to the past. Don't it count for something?
This isn't about you. You
might feel upset but have it ever crossed your mind how much more upset I am? I
might look strong and finding ways to make it look better. Working up
situations to make things sound nicer but deep down , do you know how much
stress I'm under?
I have footsteps to
follow , but we're different people. Why are you always making comparisons? If
you want to compare , why do you ignore those who did worse than me? Aren't you
the very person who always said never to compare? Than why are you doing just so?
It's easy to talk, but its not easy to do. Can you understand that?
It frustrates me that you
immediately assume everyone studied more than me. Have you seen it? It
frustrates me that you immediately turn on me claiming I only play but did
nothing for exams. You were to one who kept insisting I go to bed and I reject
it every time to study. How could you?
Why is it that my friends
can console me and see how hurt I am but the one closest to me can't? Do you
think I want it? Do you think I like it? Can you for once, just think about my
feelings?
Can you for once just see
how you're hurting me?
